Just A Little
I think about all that I am
I think about everything I believe
I think about all that I’ve been
I think about all that I’ve wanted to be
I never want to stop changing
I constantly question, I constantly try
Improving like versions of software
Erasing the files I’m leaving behind
Where do I go?
What do I do?
How can I like what I’ve been and be something new?
If I explore
The depths of my heart
I wish I could hate who I was at the start
How can a candle stand to melt away?
How can the flame look so gentle as it sways?
Cuz I’m just a little older
And just a little wiser
And just a little finer
And better a liar
And filled with little lessons that push me about
And just a little more of me finds its way out
I’m just a little lonely
And just a little broken
I’m given all the right tools
So why don’t I use them?
And if my reflections don’t know who I am
Then how will my friends ever see me again?
I think about all that I am
I think about everything I believe
I think about all that I’ve been
I think about all that I’ve wanted to be
I dither when rolling the dice
I wonder if I could get this lucky twice
And what if I do something wrong
And lose what I’ve built for myself all along
Where do I go?
What do I do?
How can I be better than me and hold onto you?
If I explore
The depths of my heart
I wish we could all wind up back at the start
What is an asteroid if it leaves the belt?
Is this how the ship of Theseus must have felt?
It’s just a little newness
It’s just a little changing
It’s just a little ember
That’s violent and raging
It’s just a little shadow that fits in a box
It’s just a little future that’s chained up with locks
I’m just another victim
I’m just another target
A merchant that works with a dangerous market
And I’m terrified that when no one’s around
Then the villain in me will burn it all down
I think about all that I am
I think about everything I believe
I think about all that I’ve been
I think about all that I’ve wanted to be